First day of school

I stressed and struggled with the first day of school to be honest. I couldn't help the rush of emotions of my first day years ago. Although my mom came with me, she had to abruptly leave to go to work. And I felt that I was abandoned. Well needless to say, I was dreading that the twins would feel the same.

And wouldn't you know, God showed up so big and comforted me through the whole thing. I was so blessed that Brad would escort the tribe that morning. When we arrived, it was chaos. No parking spaces, crowds of people, and lines of cars. We decided to park in the neighborhood and walk. Brad carried Kaleb, Lyddia carried the girls lunch bags, the twins carried their backpacks full of supplies, and I carried a big bag of school supplies on this narrow pathway. We looked like a train wreck but at least we were together! We finally made our way through all the foot traffic and made it safe and sound to the girls' class. Breeann and Jahanna were beaming when they found their names on their desks. We didn't stay too long because Kaleb started to get bored. Brad leaned close to each of the girls and gave them lovin' and encouragement before he took Kaleb and Lyddia to the playground. I was thankful to have more time to help the girls get settled. While Jahanna's teacher assisted her in an exercise I tried to help Breeann do the same. As I was in my mama role making sure everything was in its place, Breeann gave me the "ok mama, I got this," look. I turned around to see if Jahanna was o.k. and she was good to go! I said "I love you and have a good day." I kissed them both and headed out the door. It was the perfect day!

I know to some this is pointless babble but to those of you who are like me, you are drawn to deeper things and meanings. This whole experience was healing to me. I've had so much doubt in life that it nearly choked faith out of me. But God showed me more than anything that I could trust Him, again, that I could let go at any expense and He would come through. Since the girls were born, Brad & I struggled with how to raise them so that they would be independent. I dreaded the day would come when I didn't have control over who hurt their feelings or protect them from evil. But today was an epiphany that God is true to His Word. No matter how I stressed and agonized, the girls were fine. It had nothing to do with me but I was so honored to be along for the ride. It was hard to finally let God pop the bubble I've had the twins in for so long and to be assured that no matter what, God would take care of them. I'm so thankful that Brad and I experienced this day together. We glowed from seeing the confidence in our girls' faces. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart; lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways aknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6